“I’ve basically been in pain since I was 9,” Eilish said, recalling how people warned her that her pain would worsen as she grew older. This advice left her feeling "so furious."
Eilish also discussed the isolation she sometimes felt while touring for thousands of fans. "I’ve had some really dark times on tour,” she admitted. For a long time, she viewed touring as a temporary challenge. “I was kind of living like it was temporary, and the truth is, it’s the rest of my life,” she said.
However, Eilish is now focusing on making her experiences more enjoyable. “I just was very lonely for many years, and I’m not interested in that anymore. I want to enjoy the show as well as my days,” she expressed.
In a previous interview with Rolling Stone, Eilish shared her battles with depression. Despite her accomplishments, she realized she hadn’t felt truly happy in seven years. She acknowledged that her perception of happiness was often overshadowed by the pressures of fame and the industry.
Eilish is working on reconnecting with her younger self, describing 2019 as “the best time” of her life. Her latest album, Hit Me Hard and Soft, has helped her tap into that joyful version of herself. She described feeling lost amid the glitz and glamour of her career and has been grieving for the girl she used to be.
In her Vogue interview, Eilish also expressed regret over publicly discussing her sexuality and dating life and reaffirmed her support for Kamala Harris in the upcoming 2024 presidential election.